Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Like a kid at Christmas

You know how when you were little, and it was the night before your birthday, or Christmas, or the first day of school, and you couldn't sleep?? Yeah, that is totally me right now.

Tomorrow is my first prenatal visit! It was scheduled for Thursday but we are about to get a big snow storm and I wanted to get in before it hit! So I go in at 9 am!

I'm so excited I could jump up and down, and so nervous, I could throw up. A million things could go wrong tomorrow. My whole world could come crashing down again...I have never had a successful first appointment. The cramping I have been experiencing doesn't help. All my mind is swirling around is Ectopic Pregnancy

Today I started getting tiny little sharp pains on my left side, that kinda started going into my back too. The pain wasn't bad at all. More an annoyance then an actual pain really. But the fact that it was concentrated on one side has me TERRIFIED. The shred of hope is that I am extremely gassy tonight and can feel the gas bubbles moving in my tummy. So I am thinking maybe what I am feeling is some kind of gas pain. I pray it is.

J, like his Grandmother, gets these feelings of when something big is about to happen. Both he, and his Grandmother, knew I was pregnant before I did. J kept telling me to take a test. And when we called to tell his Grandmother, she answered with an excited "Oh, I know! I've already told you Grandfather!" But they also get these feelings when something terrible is about to happen. Maybe J is just trying to calm me, but he says he is getting nothing but good feelings about tomorrow. I also had a dream the other night that we got an U/S and everything looked beautiful and perfect. Oh lord, if that is the case tomorrow I will be so thankful, I don't even know what I'll do.

As far as symptoms go, I have them a-plenty! And dark tests too! Yes, I am crazy test lady who has taken several tests every single day since I first found out, just to make sure they are still positive. This mornings was the darkest yet! Very reassuring. New symptoms: itchy nipples!! Yikes! That hit me whilst perusing the baby aisle at Target. I am finally getting the exhaustion that all pregnant women complain about. Although, it would be nice if it could hit me right now when I need to sleep, instead of during the day!

So that is basically it! I doubt I will sleep tonight. I am praying to the good lord that everything looks good tomorrow. I have wanted this for so long, and everyone is SO happy for us. Please God, let us see a healthy baby tomorrow.

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  1. Good Luck at your appt. I cant wait to read your appt update and see the ultrasound pics.. Congrats on your BIG FAT POSITIVE....Positive vibes for you and hubby...