Tuesday, August 21, 2012

It's just been one of those days....

First of all- Before I start ranting like a raving lunatic- I want to extend a BIG welcome and thank you for all my new Followers lately!!! I believe a lot of you have been finding my blog via Pinterest. Isn't Pinterest a wonderful thing?? Don't be shy about leaving comments =)

And now....It begins.

Did you ever have just one of those days when you just completely break down over the stupidest thing? Yeah...That was me today. It was an extremely stressful day. My living room is currently in disarray because we are FINALLY painting!! I am not thrilled with the color, actually. On the swatch it looked much more creamy. But on the wall it just looks off-white. But it's a lot better and it really brightens the room up.

You can see the original color on top

I only have the first coat on 2 walls so far, which brings me to my aggravation. I am the type of person that when I start a home project, I want to finish is RIGHT away. I don't like having to put things off. But when you have an almost toddler crawling around everywhere, daily household duties, a part time job, and a boyfriend who HATES to paint, it's not going to get done in the timeframe I would like.

And then today happened. Mackenzie woke up later than usual, which was nice. I got to sleep in a little. We got up and had breakfast and played, and I put her down for her first nap. I started to get a load of laundry going and the phone rings. It's my MIL telling me that she accidentally ran over our dog with her pick-up truck and he was limping very badly (J takes him over there every morning so he can run around the 9 acre property and play with all his other doggy buddies). So I had to wake Kenzie up from her nap, and off to the vet we went.

Luckily, and by some miracle, nothing was broken or even fractured. He's just going to be a sore pup for a little while. So he's on anti-inflammatories. I'm telling you....He really lives up to his name...Lucky Cash.

We get home, and I am trying desperately to get the damn dog to just lie down on his bed. But of course he wants to walk around and chase the cats. J calls and says he's going to be working super late but would like chicken cutlets, homemade mashes potatoes and gravy, and creamed corn for dinner. Ick. Not so good for someone trying to lose weight. So I fixed myself a tuna salad for dinner, and proceeded to start making his. I had put Kenzie in her crib at this point, so she could just kind of chill out and play while I cooked. I got the chicken fried, and started boiling the potatoes. I hear Mackenzie laughing hysterically upstairs in her room. I crept up there expecting to find my cute little imp doing something incredibly adorable. Oh, but no. No no no. It was like a horror scene. SHIT EVERYWHERE. Onsie busted open, diaper on top of her head, and shit smeared ALL over her crib. Not only that, but she was finger painting a pretty picture for me on the wall....With her poo. She thought it was hiiiiiiiiiiilarious.

So I ran a bath, stripped her down and washed her off. My God, she is too much like her father. I practically needed a pressure washer to get all the crap off her. But I did. Put her in a sleeper because it was SO close to her bedtime. But damnit...Her sheets and blankets were covered in poo. Put her in her jumper, stripped down the bed and threw it in the laundry basket. Walk back downstairs with it and smell burning. SHIT! The potatoes!!!! All the water was boiling over the pot and sizzling on the burner. Got that cleaned up...Kenzie starts screaming because she is upstairs and doesn't like to be alone. I run down the basement steps (almost tripping in my flip-flops and killing myself) and get all the laundry started. The phone rings. "Hey babe...Can you come pick me up from work now?"

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Throw kenzie in the truck and off I go. Pick up J, get home, and J is pissed off that dinner isn't on the table....I still needed to heat up the creamed corn and mash the potatoes. He gets in the shower, I throw Kenzie in her walker so I can finish up dinner. All the while she is screaming and tugging at my pant leg because she is hungry and extremely tired. It was Waaaaay past her bedtime.

Throw her sheets and blankets in the dryer. Thank goodness they only take about 15 minutes to dry. J inhales his dinner and retreats to his office to play WoW . -_- I give Kenzie her dinner, put the sheets back on her mattress, giver her a bottle, and she is out like a light within 10 minutes.

Finally sit down, get on a MB I frequent. Tell about my day. The response? "Why are you making fried chicken and gravy if you're trying to lose weight?"

I fucking lost it. I just lost it. Big ugly sobs lost it. Complete internet strangers made me have a mental breakdown tonight.

All I can say? Thank God for Klonopin.


Monday, August 13, 2012

Well, thank God that is over!

The HCG diet is DONE. I am down almost 20 lbs. I didn't follow it to a "t" and I did tweak the diet here and there. I also didn't do the full 45 days. J and I have noticed that ever since I started it, my anti-depressants stopped working. I went back to crazy, bitchy, anxiety-ridden Ashley. I just can't live like that. And it makes J's life a lot more difficult too. So I am DONE. I am happy with my results, and it really did teach me a lot as far as portion control goes. I will never not weigh my food again!

So the plan now is to just eat better, and less. Oh yeah...And now I have to workout. harumph.

There have been some mighty big changes going on around here, and more on the way. We are going to be doing a bit of redecorating around the house. I am so tired of the green walls in the L.R. Our hardwood floors have a very 70's orangish tone to them, and it just looks so gross with the sage green walls. J talked me into the color when I first met him. And I was all love-struck and so I said okay, all the while I secretly hated it. The problem is now, that we have these dark hunter green sofas. I'm just wondering if it would look funny against a creamy colored wall? I'm sure I could throw in some coordinating accent pillows and blankets and whatnot, that would tie it all together nicely.

In other news- It's happened again. The 10 year back-and-fourth Saga of Ashley & Amanda continues! We finally got in touch with each other after almost a year ( we stopped talking the end of November). It's been a hard year without my best friend of 10 years. She's missed out on so much of Mackenzie's life, and that is the part the makes me the most sad. I told her anything I ever said or did was only because I love and care about her so much. And I wanted her to be happy. I didn't want to see her go through another horrible experience like she did with her Ex. She understood, and said she was very immature about the whole situation. She also said she had wanted to call me so badly, but she felt like she had been so shitty to me, that she didn't deserve my friendship. So we are giving it another go. We are taking it very slowly. I am not jumping on the "oh mah gawd! You're mah best friend forever" bandwagon just yet. We went out for dinner and drinks Saturday night, and it was honestly the hardest I had laughed in a long time. We almost died on the car ride home because we were laughing so hard at absolutely nothing, and the car was going all over the road.

I am making it a priority to keep my mouth SHUT about her relationship. If she asks for my opinion or advice, I'll give it. But otherwise, I am staying out of it. I always have and always will love Chris. Once upon a time, he was one of my very best friends. But, he's changed so much since he went into the Marines. It's like they sucked all the joy out of him. He is not my Christophee. But I hope one day, he'll be back. And we can all pick up where we left off.

The countdown until Mackenzie's 1st birthday is on! 5 weeks to go! GAH! I can't believe it! I'm going to have a toddler! It's so funny to look back on my old blogs and see how worried I was about never being a Mother. And now, I have an almost 1 year old. It's funny how life works, ain't it?

Saturday, August 11, 2012


The best same-sex coupe to have ever been created.

Time to take back our Country! Go get em guys!!

Monday, August 6, 2012

Just a quick update!

Kudos to those of you who still read this after all this time!

I really have nothing interesting to update you on right now. Everything in my life is pretty steady! The job is going well- It's not my favorite, but it's a little extra money!  I've made some great friends so far. I am still always looking for something more in the field I got my degree in. I am also contemplating going back to school for Medical Assistance. I was desperately trying to avoid the science classes, *teehee*, but it looks like it's going to be the only way to get my foot in the door.

Mackenzie is just as cute as ever. We tried her with a little Almond Milk and she did beautifully! No breakouts at all!

J and I are great. Still waiting for "Mr. Sparkly"! My goodness, how long have I been talking about this now? 2 years? LOL. GET IT TOGETHER J, I want that October 2013 wedding!

So that's it. See, told you it was nothing interesting!