Well, thank God that is over!

The HCG diet is DONE. I am down almost 20 lbs. I didn't follow it to a "t" and I did tweak the diet here and there. I also didn't do the full 45 days. J and I have noticed that ever since I started it, my anti-depressants stopped working. I went back to crazy, bitchy, anxiety-ridden Ashley. I just can't live like that. And it makes J's life a lot more difficult too. So I am DONE. I am happy with my results, and it really did teach me a lot as far as portion control goes. I will never not weigh my food again!

So the plan now is to just eat better, and less. Oh yeah...And now I have to workout. harumph.

There have been some mighty big changes going on around here, and more on the way. We are going to be doing a bit of redecorating around the house. I am so tired of the green walls in the L.R. Our hardwood floors have a very 70's orangish tone to them, and it just looks so gross with the sage green walls. J talked me into the color when I first met him. And I was all love-struck and so I said okay, all the while I secretly hated it. The problem is now, that we have these dark hunter green sofas. I'm just wondering if it would look funny against a creamy colored wall? I'm sure I could throw in some coordinating accent pillows and blankets and whatnot, that would tie it all together nicely.

In other news- It's happened again. The 10 year back-and-fourth Saga of Ashley & Amanda continues! We finally got in touch with each other after almost a year ( we stopped talking the end of November). It's been a hard year without my best friend of 10 years. She's missed out on so much of Mackenzie's life, and that is the part the makes me the most sad. I told her anything I ever said or did was only because I love and care about her so much. And I wanted her to be happy. I didn't want to see her go through another horrible experience like she did with her Ex. She understood, and said she was very immature about the whole situation. She also said she had wanted to call me so badly, but she felt like she had been so shitty to me, that she didn't deserve my friendship. So we are giving it another go. We are taking it very slowly. I am not jumping on the "oh mah gawd! You're mah best friend forever" bandwagon just yet. We went out for dinner and drinks Saturday night, and it was honestly the hardest I had laughed in a long time. We almost died on the car ride home because we were laughing so hard at absolutely nothing, and the car was going all over the road.

I am making it a priority to keep my mouth SHUT about her relationship. If she asks for my opinion or advice, I'll give it. But otherwise, I am staying out of it. I always have and always will love Chris. Once upon a time, he was one of my very best friends. But, he's changed so much since he went into the Marines. It's like they sucked all the joy out of him. He is not my Christophee. But I hope one day, he'll be back. And we can all pick up where we left off.

The countdown until Mackenzie's 1st birthday is on! 5 weeks to go! GAH! I can't believe it! I'm going to have a toddler! It's so funny to look back on my old blogs and see how worried I was about never being a Mother. And now, I have an almost 1 year old. It's funny how life works, ain't it?